"A nun is not a person who wishes or desires."
-Audrey Hepburn, as Sister Luke in A Nun's Story
I recently caught this 1959 film by accident on Channel 11, and was spellbound.
Based on the 1956 novel by Kathryn Hulme, it's about a young Belgian nurse who in 1900 decided to leave her family to become a nun and work in the Belgian Congo.
The burning away of her lower nature through such pre-Vatican II tapas (austerities) as avoiding useless speech and relationships, writing down her faults, constantly negating her self-will, attempting perfect obedience, getting up at 4am, etc. reminded me so much of yoga, I kept inadvertently substituting the word "yogi" for "nun" as I watched this excellent film.
At one point, Sister Luke is standing across the operating table from the brilliant atheist doctor, performing a surgery.
She starts to blink and turn green, and then begins to faint.
The doctor asks if it's the long hours and lack of food that are making her lightheaded.
No, she says.
"It's all the garlic you ate last night."
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(Garlic fumes make this yogi feel ill, too).
(In fact, when I was in Mysore the students used to avoid garlic and onions so that they wouldn't offend Pattabhi Jois. That is, until Friday night - when they could eat whatever they wanted, since there was no practice on Saturday. More often than not, they went for the pungent, deep-fried, garlic-and-onion-laden Gobi Machuri at Mahesh Prasad).
(If only the students here would do the same).
BONUS QUOTE FROM THE SAME MOVIE
"Tension is a sign of intense internal struggle."